ok for some reason i was in a bad mood so i wrote down my thoughts on the sport of soccer. Specifically, my soccer camp. I had it written down on a separate piece of paper and looking over it, it's a lot more honest than i'm usually comfortable with but whatever.
soccer, soccer, soccer... oi vey, i'm gonna be behind by soooo stinking much. dangit. :( owell, i'll just have to try extra super duper hard. should i even try out though? it's not like i'm thouroughly enjoying myself. heck, i'm having a miserable time, i just don't want to admit it. geeze like seriously, this stupid camp is no camp at all. it's really just some way to show the coaches what you got which would be fine except for i came to the camp because all my skills ran away from me in the 2 years i haven't picked up a ball. ugg. it really is kind of humiliating, you know. going out there with all the super pro girls who can do all these tricks with their feet and perform just about everything the coach throws at them. hah. and then there's me. now don't get me wrong. i don't suck. i just look like a 3 year old next to these girls and it sure doesn't help that i'm a freshman. and you can tell that the girls are trying to be nice but all they're really doing on the inside is sizing you up. giving you glances like you aren't worth anything. and you're probably going oh sure, but believe me, i've seen them so it. oh gosh. and then there are the coaches. you know, they said that there are four open spots on the girl's JV team this year. FOUR! i really don't think i have a chance. but anyways, they expect you to already know everything and they expect you to be able to fake somebody out and then pass it (the ball) diagonally across the field while recieving another ball to shoot at the goal. we had to do it at the last practice two weeks ago. on the 2nd day of camp. the whole thing is very exhausting. but i won't quit the camp. that would be stupid. i might not try out but i won't quit the camp. AND on top of all this craziness with the camp, germany LOST to spain :( it's a sad, sad, day in linneaville.
2 comments:
hey girl i HATE seeing you like this.
1. if you don't love it,don't do it.
2. failure is apart of life, when you suck you just get back up and try it again
3. you need to keep your head up, and when your getting super frustrated pray to the Lord that minute.
4. you need to text me soon or talk to me next time we see each other cause im gonna give u a little pep talk
5. i know its hard not being the best, cause we all wanna be the best at something..but think about it if your getting judged who gives a freaking rip cause God gave u other gifts too, your a leader, encouraing, smart, athletic, positive, and musical.
6. i love you and welcome home:)
jennalee, you instantly make me feel better :) i love you ❤
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